I saw the prompt, “what made you choose your blog name?”
Here is my answer.
I decided to start this blog several months after I started my Instagram page, @bryanathatboymom. As of today, it is 50 away from reaching 9,000 followers.
When I started my page, my handle was just my name.
But I didn’t feel like that accurately described what my page was going to be.
Other accounts that are just their name, share all scopes of their life. Or so it feels.
My page was morphing into the “motherhood” niche. And I really liked it that way. I was really finding my community there.
Which, all makes sense, because I myself have found my identity and purpose in motherhood.
So, I decided to change my handle.
I had two sons. And I love my two sons dearly, and above everything else in my life. And, when I was pregnant with my second son, I will not lie, I was hoping for a girl.
I didn’t experience gender disappointment, per se, as I was elated to have another little boy. After all, I was just obsessed with my first son. But, there was definitely that feeling of, “what if”.
So, my motherhood journey has included that experience, of learning to love and embrace being a mother to two sons.
One of my favourite Instagram creators, Katy Fassett, shares quite a bit about her experience with gender disappointment after finding out she was giving birth to her fourth son.
I may not be having any more children.
My husband has been pretty adamant about being done after two children. And, at this point in our lives, I am inclined to agree. Two children fit perfectly in our life…
They each have their own room, in our 3 bedroom place. They fit in our vehicles. We are planning on private school, so that cost is more affordable. We save for expensive trips, like to Disney World, and having just two littles along makes that way more affordable and easier to manage.
But, I feel like I have more love to give.
So the topic of a third baby has not totally been shut down. No permanent solutions made as of yet.
But, hanging in this limbo, made me want to accept and OWN being a mom two my two sons.
A boy mom.
So, while Bryana That Boy Mom is catchy and has cute alliteration, it really is a handle that is special to me and carries a lot of meaning. It describes a deeper journey that I have experienced, and continue to experience.
This response may have been deeper than you anticipated.
So, thank you if you are still here.
As always, you can catch me on my Instagram page, @bryanathatboymom.